i have always wanted to be a woman 

i didn't quite know what it meant 

but it stirred something in me 

that felt wild and beautiful.

i am freshly touching the grass

of womanhood, 

and as i do i see 

there is beauty and pain 

in every aspect of life.

as i heal, i understand 

the great blessing 

pain can be 

when received 

with curiosity.

i have always wanted to be a woman. 

so i could have

the most beautiful body

in the world 

as all women do.

nobody told me 

i would have to learn 

how to love her 

over and over again 

but i do. 

i have always wanted to be a woman. 

so i could harness 

the beauty of the world 

and create a life 

riddled with dreams. 

nobody told me

the journey is the dream 

that aches to be seen.

i love being a woman. 

it’s being afraid

of everything 

and nothing at all. 

it’s touching the grass 

of heavens door 

just long enough to know 

where to go 

from here.

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